Book 3: Chapter 4

I am improving. O'Brien has made me all that he has wished for. My body is getting back to normal and I feel new again. Pain and starvation does not even come into my mind anymore. If anything, my life as a prisoner is better than my daily life. I receive three meals a day with meat at the end of each meal. I am enjoying it and feel like I am on vacation. Then the night came when I got caught from screaming Julia's name. I guess my internal feelings are still there and they have not beaten them out yet. I hope they just shoot me in the back of the head.