Book 3: Chapter 6

I can finally experience the great feeling of freedom. I never would have thought I would be released from prison. I get to sit in this cafe all day and sip on the disgusting gin. I started having weird memories of the past. I betrayed Julia and she betrayed me. I guess that is all the Party wanted us to do. We broke a promise between each other and our relationship has ceased to exist. It is unbelievable how I pictured marrying Julia. Now my only love is Big Brother.

Book 3: Chapter 5

Rats! I did not think I would ever see them again. O'Brien has the most torturous mind in Oceania. I cannot believe he has the evil to have the dirty infected rats on my face. They can eat my eyes out and eventually kill me. I cannot move and fight back because stupid O'Brien is scared of me hurting him. He has not skills to fight me. Instead he has the guards do everything for him because he knows if I lay hands on him, I will kill him. No rats, fire, water, or swords for killing him. He will face the same torture he has caused me and then be shot in the back of the head.

Book 3: Chapter 4

I am improving. O'Brien has made me all that he has wished for. My body is getting back to normal and I feel new again. Pain and starvation does not even come into my mind anymore. If anything, my life as a prisoner is better than my daily life. I receive three meals a day with meat at the end of each meal. I am enjoying it and feel like I am on vacation. Then the night came when I got caught from screaming Julia's name. I guess my internal feelings are still there and they have not beaten them out yet. I hope they just shoot me in the back of the head.

Book 3: Chapter 3

Why did I betray Julia? I said I had not betrayed her but I know I did. I had told O'Brien everything I know about Julia. I betrayed Julia and I hope she will forgive me. I hope she is safe and was released. Although I know she probably confessed as much as I have. Maybe she is already dead for O'Brien said I was a difficult case. Knowing Julia she probably did not obey their requests. I wonder if her body looks as dead as mine. My body has deteriorated and I will probably die before they will shoot me. I do not think I will ever recover from this skinny and gray body.

Book 3: Chapter 2

The torture sessions were horrific! A plethora of pain running through my body to where I do not even feel them hitting me anymore. The pain has diminished each torture session. The crazy thing is that I do not know the exact reason I am being punished. I have spoken to know one except O'Brien. I was being beaten by people that did not care what crime I committed. Torture will not cure me, it will only kill me. O'Brien's mentality is corrupt and so is his idea of torture. He kept switching the dial on and off. That was the worst amount of pain I have endured in my entire life.

Book 3: Chapter 1

I hope the Brotherhood can send me a razor blade. I would rather commit suicide than die in this cell I have been in. I absolutely hate it in here. I have realized that Room 101 is most likely where they put prisoners to their death. I am starving and am scared for the torture that is soon to come. On a good note, I met a women that could be my mother. I doubt it because there is no way she had committed any crime. I wonder what would happen if she were to be my mother. If she is then we will both die.

Book 2: Chapter 10

Mr. Charrington! I would have never guessed. I cannot believe he is of the Thought Police. For all I know he could have been listening since day one. Mr. Charrington was probably hiding and listening behind the wall the whole time. He knows all of Julia and I's secrets. I pray that I will see the love of my life again. We did not even have time to say good bye or get a good look at each other. Maybe the lady outside was in on our arrest because she had disappeared. I cannot turst anyone in this society.