Book 3: Chapter 3

Why did I betray Julia? I said I had not betrayed her but I know I did. I had told O'Brien everything I know about Julia. I betrayed Julia and I hope she will forgive me. I hope she is safe and was released. Although I know she probably confessed as much as I have. Maybe she is already dead for O'Brien said I was a difficult case. Knowing Julia she probably did not obey their requests. I wonder if her body looks as dead as mine. My body has deteriorated and I will probably die before they will shoot me. I do not think I will ever recover from this skinny and gray body.